Well now I don't have to worry about that

To Be or not To Be? That is the question.

So Carry Me,
I'm just a dead man
Lying on the carpet
Can't find a heartbeat
Make me breathe,
I want to be a new man
Tired of the old one
Out with the old plan

Perhaps some times we have things happen to us, so that we may understand things better. Out of the blue and I'm lost as to why or how. But that's how it is sometimes.

Sitting silent wearing Sunday best
The sermon echoes through the walls
A great salvation through it calls to the people
who stare into nowhere, and can't feel the chains on their souls

He's more than the laughter or the stars in the heavens
As close as a heartbeat or a song on our lips
Someday we'll trust Him and learn how to see Him
Someday He'll call us and we will come running
and fall in His arms and the tears will fall down and we'll pray,

Personally, I find the acknowledgement that it's all out of my control a relief. And I don't think relinquishing things to a higher power is a failing. It's a joy, not a crutch. Empowering, not restricting.

Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. 
 In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths.